Damn Son

I've been having strange feelings these days... like my heart is sinking and I'm about to breakdown. I have no clue why... maybe it's stress. I've also been having the weirdest dreams. One that was about mice and rats. Another about my family breaking up. Last night I dreamt that I was at the beach with my brother, it turned dark all of a sudden, and became this awful person and started choking him and forcing his head under water... I also noticed my skin was cracked and I looked scary and angry... Two of my cousins were also in there, but I dont rememeber much of it. Also I was with my grandparents and parents meeting somewhere in london, a coffee shop of sorts, and I think something wasn't right (although my grandma was perfectly fine). I've been having nightmare after nightmare, and I've been supressing a cry for weeks now (probably a month). 

This song makes me feel better though, but now that I've listened to it for so long, I'm getting bored of it... and when I need new music I feel depressed.

Anyways...enjoy it:

Random Things.

I might be failing every class (except for one).

Sickness is making me lose weight (wohoo).

Also making me fall behind (not wohoo).

I think I don't like ketchup like I used to, or maybe it tastes different here.

I'm waiting for someone to get off the computer I worked on last week because I forgot to save something important (It would save me three and a half hours if he just got up now) and I'm too shy to ask him if I can use it real quick.

My crush laughs at my misery.

I had an amazing brunch, but barely ate anything (worrying about school).

Had four hours of free time yesterday that I could have spent on studio work... but I didn't.

Some people talk too fucking much.

Sexy cop won't give me her number.

Give me your number sexy cop.

Get off the computer you fucking hoe.

Should I just go ask him.

His friends are sitting next to him, will probably think I'm weird.

I think I'm gonna work on my other assignments as I wait for mister I can't edit my essay fast enough to get off the computer.

I hate people right now.

Another crush doesn't even know who I am.

Somebody kill me now.

I need to do laundry.

Have enough food to last me a week and a half.

Kinda hungry, and refuse to buy anything until I finish what I have... I've been throwing out too much food.

Get off the computer dickhead.

God i want to fucking punch your laughing face.

You get my frustration?

Sexy cop, please don't hate in this post, double it in my next post.

I need to do work.

Procrastinating.

Watched Ellen DeGeneres Friday night.

She talked about procrastination too.

Crush just texted me, asking where I am.

I wish I wasn't so shy.

Fuck this crap.

I gotsa go.

Update:

Look at him, he's spinning around in his chair, laughing with his friends... If only choking someone til he passes out was legal.

I Hate Fevers

I'm so hot and dizzy right now, it hurts when I look at the screen :( i wanna go to a pharmacy, but don't have the power to do so, :( Sick, trying to blog, and cursing my sickness, I don't have time for this.

Sexy cop.... this is another chance for you to leave nasty comments : [I'd stick my tongue sideways and wink, but don't feel like it.]

When I Grow Up

I ate one of the best duck dishes last night... It was so amazingly juicy and flavorful, that I actually want to order it again now that I think of it, hahaha. I'm trying to learn how to like all the foods that I don't like.

Most people that know me, know that I hate fish (although I love shellfish). I was thinking though, what if one day one of my children wanted to know something about fish, or how it tastes like. So far I only know that sole is one of the mildest fish. Still though, I want to experience more and hopefully like it. I'm starting to get used spicy food (though it does kinda burn when I go to th bathroom, weird). I want to be a good source for my kids, so that if they had questions, I would have experienced most of it. (lol, as I say this I remember slumdog millionaire, if you haven't watched it, you should!)

I pulled an all nighter thursday night/morning, and didn't sleep until the movie I went to last night...what was it called?! Anyways, it was very sexual and crazy, couldn't help but sleep. Somehow, it turnes out it's about jews, lol, or at least that was what the conversations going back home implied. I've been spending more time with the khalijis than I did last semester. So far, it's good, until the pressure from studio gets hectic and they think im trying to avoid them, lol.

Holy Shitstickle

Three assignments for tomorrow, none of which are done, and one not even started. I don't know what to do with myself. I can't afford to sleep ten hour nights, I shouldn't even sleep for more than five a day. I don't have the time, and when I'm actually at the studio or computer lab, I'm blogging or daydreaming.

Sorry about the bitching, lol, my phone just died and my ipod is about to die too. :( I hate it when I don't have background music filling my life like colors on a piece of fabric. Without it everything is so plain and boring. I'm not really happy about the amount of work we've been given.

Tapas and Paella

I'm gonna see hamster today... we're going to this spanish restaurant that I've never tried before. I seriously can't wait (It's in a half hour, lol). I'm remembering Barcelona, and the amazing food I ate there. It's much different than Marbella. I liked it more, just wish there were more spanish people there. We went in July or August, and I guess most spanish people are probably vacationing elsewhere at that time. Still, the food was amazing, the hotel was one of the best I've seen, and the museums were exciting. I went to Picasso's museum, and saw his amazing work.

Ok, gotta go now... gonna be late. I'M SO HUNGRY!!!

UPDATE: The dinner was cancelled :( Ate chinese instead... Lol, what a turn of events.

Back to School

So, the first week has passed, and so far none of my classes have given it's students a break. Assignments are piling up again. 

The good thing though, is that I'm not procrastinating this time, lol. I'm actually done with one assignment, gave another assignment a serious amount of thought, and after I'm done with it, I'll start my third assignment. I also have a calculus quiz on Thursday. I think I'll have everything done, and done well by the time everything is due. 

My studio professor is strict and is known to give more work than is assigned for the rest of the studio students, and my old studio professor (who I love, but gave me a B) told him that I need to be pressured to work efficiently... which means, holy crap! I'm gonna be screwed! Now I really need to show him that I'm up for it. 

Around 15 people already dropped out of the program, and they're expecting another 15 to drop out by next semester. I hope I'm not one of them! Correction: I won't be one of them! Wow, that feels much better, makes me wanna listen to Fighter by Christina Aguilara, lol.

Btw... funny song, I Can Get Sexual Too by Say Anything.